115 posts tagged “me”

One autumn day, we went out for photo session. Just because it's our last leaf dropping season in Ukraine.

We had so much fun...

Then i realized that we knew each other for 7 years...

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We walked pass the university gate together....

I hope i have a choice.....

then i will grab the chance...

to run far far away....

have my own little life...

without suffocation and act freely...

maybe fall out is the only solution....??!!

I'm back to Ukraine, and finally i'm a final year medical student. I still remember when i was in first year, i don't even dare to think about it. And now i'm here! It's so amaze how time past by. Still remember i'm so green when i step my foot on this land and now i'm 24.

I was so excited this time to be back. It's so unusual for me. I was excited because i knew everything will be ending soon. 10 more months to go....Those unhappy or pressure things will be over and i will have a new life back home. I can't wait!

And here am i, counting down for the next 9 months.....

 

It was my birthday yesterday. It bring back lots of memories to me. How i started my studies here, how i celebrated each of my birthday here and yesterday i celebrated my last birthday in Ukraine. It was a mixed feeling. I think birthday in Ukraine itself doesn't mean a lot to me (beside the hard work of my mum to deliver me to this world), but friends around me that make it special every single year on this day.

So this year, Zoey and Siew Jing put in lots of effort to bake cakes for me.....I knew it was extra hard to keep things away from me since we are all classmate and I'm so smart!! But still it turn out excellent without me noticing....

The cupcakes was lovely. I'm sure they have a hard time to produce it. I love it so much. And the aeroplane model from choon hua beside the cake, perfect! Thank you so much my lovely friends.....

 

                                                                             

                                                                                 I'm delighted

 

                                                   Me with Choon Hua, Zoey and Siew Jing...Nice pic

 At night of 100909, we went out to have dinner at downtown. The name of the place is "Verona", Nice place! I have 2 suprise guest. Guest from sekampung...wahahha

                                                                   Soon Chen & Alison

I have a great time there. Chatting, eating and laughing. The food was good, so as the service!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Then i have another cake from Amigo....

 

                                                                   Happily dunno what to wish....

                                                                          Happy Birthday!!

 

Thank you everyone for their wishes. I really appreciate it. Thank you Choon Hua for his nice shirt! Fit me well. Thank you again for the cakes. It was a memorable birthday!! I love all of you.... 

I don't know what i'm doing now......I'm suppose to study but i just can't concentrate as i should. Everyone is celebrating for their summer holiday but i still have my last paper for tomorrow - Surgery.

Wish me luck everyone. I can't wait to finish all these and back to my routine. It has been a month of exams...I'm exhausted. I'm looking forward tomorrow when i'm on the train to my dream land...Wahahah

10 hours more to Finale!!

My tears just fell down when i listen to the sermon, when we were praying or taking Holy communion.... I don't know why. My heart was moved by the Holy spirit. i just can't help to felt that way. I felt I'm so small in front of Him and I realize how much i need him in my life. I felt I'm so sinful and ashame in front of Him. I felt the stress....

I thought of Yang Mei when i was in church,felt that she should go to church at her new place. I sms her, and she replied. Hope she can make it today....

And i talked to my parents today. Today is my dad's Birthday. They are heading to dinner with few of my cousins when i was on phone with them. I felt the joy in them. It's always so sweet to listen to them when my heart felt heavy. Well, i never hide from them how i felt for things. And i guess they felt the pressure in me too....

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I trust in Him and I knew i will gain victory once again through Him....

 

I want to blog but nothing is in my mind. I'm blur,  i look tired...

I miss myself there....

 

At least a more "fresh" me...wahahha

Good luck to everyone. All the best in preparing for the exams.

Life get so boring lately...with books books and books....tones of them...

It's so near to the final and yet we still have traumatology class. i wonder why our university don't provide us with long study break. It's so tired to go class for almost half of the day and then read up for so many things. I felt every single page is so important that i try to squeeze my brain to remember them. Guess what, after a while i forget them again. It's so discourage. Sometime i felt so reluctant don't know where to start for my study. I should have study O&G because there are so many mechanisms and diseases to remember. Then i realize actually our surgery exam cover a lot of new topics that i never read before. After a while, i think those infectious diseases are just so crazy with different causative agents with their own mechanism of transmission and incubation period together with clinical symptoms. Therapy -  the ultimate. The range to cover is so wide, from pathogenesis to pharmacology, then ECG, spirometry, lab, x-ray.....etc...Make me faint. Lastly paediatric, i don't really remember a single things from neonatology that i have learned last semester. It just killing me!!

I know what i did is nothing compare to others. But at least for me, i already pushed myself to one of my limit and i really don't know what else i can do. Perhaps need a smarter brain...wahaha.

Cross finger what i have studied is still inside the brain. I have this funny thought. I scare to recall what i have studied. I scare it will go lost ...silly.... 

Am i happy with my life??

I know when i ask this question, something must have been really wrong in my life.

I have all i needed in life - my lovely parents, my supportive siblings, education, money, freedom, travel, friends, and the ultimate Jesus Christ in my life. What else i'm lack of? I can't think of any.

Why sorrow still engulf me? Why emptiness still in my heart? Why i'm so incompetent in so many aspect?

I guess i knew the answer already while i'm typing...

"I'm so sorry dear **** "

 

He come to save us,

He come to free us,

He come to give hopes to all

HE - Jesus

 

The one who die on the cross and

Rose from the death.

 

The one and the only one!