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So the holiday come to an end.....

As usual, the happy time always seems to pass by faster, and now i'm back to my usual routine. It's always hard to get back to the mood and the momentum in studies.....

Went to church mini conference today. It gave me a moment of self refresh. It's like the "refresh" button on Internet explore, you reload the page that you want to view it again in case it didn't load properly. For me, I want to reload part of my broken life which is awful to be said.

Like the song,

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

I'm really sick of what are happening around me recently....

I'm so tired to think about it or even talk about it....

I have no answer for myself

And i think only God knows what to do!!!!

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The more i hear the sound inside of me,

the more uncertain i'm

The more i hear the songs that play,

the more i become desperate

Then the emotional part of me is arguing with the rational part

guess what??

The rational part of me won again!

So left 1 week of holiday. Time just pass by without we noticing it.....

Another 1 month before i go home. I wonder will this 1 month pass by fast. I hope it will.

Nothing much on coming week except some church events, gym,....and that's all i think.

I'm kinda curious how the school is going to arrange the replacement class and what we are going to have when school start??!!

Till then, i guess is good to rest and slow down the steps and look, refresh what is going on in life and what will be in future.

Have a great week ahead everyone.

I'm thinking......

Haven't Met You Yet lyrics

I'm not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to loose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we'll get it right an',
we'll be united

Instrumental

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,
And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!

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Finally I got my ticket.

After so many drama.....With confirm booking, booking cancel, fully booked, change destination, looking for other airlines, credit card not accepted, need to pay in another brunch ...etc....

I'M FLYING TO SEOUL......

I ain't joking, yea...Seoul, South Korea.

I'm so excited!! I'm excited to be in the place of production of all the drama series with over doing facial expression; Famous for post-plastic girls; Nice foods; Heard is place for shopping....I'm over whelming! 

More important, IBM going back home :P

在想。。。。

在等。。。。

在听。。。。

那秋天的彩虹

It's a dramatic November...

At the beginning of the month, we were having Cardiology. It was super busy. With all the materials, ECG, lab analysis, treatment algorithm and doses, seriously it has been a while that i didn't get so busy. With Smoglov, i think it was a good training.

Then out of sudden, Ukrainian government announced a 3 weeks close down of all schools over Ukraine, give us a shock. No one expect holiday in the mid of semester. It was all because of swine flu! So currently i'm doing nothing basically "enjoying' my holiday. It's weird, but who doesn't want a free holiday. Lots of Malaysians flew back, just because of it. I was thinking it's because of the cheap ticket or afraid of the disease. Well, why not if you have extra money to fly back. :P

Meanwhile, i'm still struggling to get a ticket to go back KL on December for Christmas and new year. No place for TK flight to Singapore and Bangkok. Full!!!  I might transit in Seoul. I hope i can. But i know i'm wasting the time to grab a cheap ticket. I'm still waiting for the announcement about replacement class or extend of this holiday. I'm in dilemma. Arrrgggggggg....

Good luck to you...

I know you will do well...

You just flew into my into my mind so frequent this few days....

Maybe i knew you are worried, and make me more nervous....

Wonder how is your progress....

I just pray that you are copping well and doing fine.

Good luck....